Saturday, February 18, 2006
â 7:28 PM
It's time I stopped thinking about what others want or expect from me and just live my life the way I want. this is my life I should dictate it. it shouldn't be about people telling u wat to do or wat people expect about u. if they truly love u they’ll respect the choices u make.
It upsets me because I feel that u r trying to get rid of me as quickly as possible. its like u love me the least. I don’t want to leave now. I'll leave eventually but let it at my own time and my own terms. I’m not ready.
I have so much I wanna do with my life and I want it to be my own time. I wan to explore the world by myself on my own terms so I can sit back one day and reflect that
"hey, that was my time. I did it for me"
I’m not old enough right now. I still have lots to learn and I wanna learn it at my own pace not because I’ve been thrown into it.
I regret the answer I gave u. y? because I didn’t think through before I made my decision. I said it without thinking and I gave an answer that I thought would make everyone happy. Guess what, everyone is happy but I’m not.
If u really know me as a person u would know that I’m upset and I don’t want this but I guess u r not really listening r u…
I have so many things I’ve yet to accomplish…And now that I’m young I wanna accomplish them…I know in my heart that being tied down wont make my dreams come true.
So I’m going to fight this time because at the end of the day it’s about time I placed me before others.